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ajira_kunisaki
03 January 2010 @ 01:26 am
happy new year! -moved-  
||  HAPPY NEW YEAR ||

oh wow 09 was good to me. it was an awesome year filled with lots of firsts. not all encouraged by the right side of the law haha. graduated high school and started college at UCR. man it's been a roller coaster. you realize a lot after graduating from high school. sometimes things just don't work out. you can keep trying but sometimes no matter what you do it won't matter. anyway all in all i've grown a little bit this year in more ways than one. i still got a long way to go tho! my only resolution is to get over this person. ok well i've moved to wordpress. ajirakunisaki.wordpress.com. i've recently taking a liking to photography and yeah its more like a photo blog. so they'll always be pictures. :D im really lovin it. livejournal's been good to me. maybe i'll come back and post. anyway see you all in the new year and wish you all the best. 
 
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ajira_kunisaki
12 December 2009 @ 02:45 am
12-11-09  




As i lay awake on another sleepless night, i think to myself.
"It's one of those nights again..."
With feelings unreturned sometimes one can only find solace in contempt.
I clarify that it is not contempt towards another, but towards myself.
I ask myself "why? why you?"
As i fall deeper into my despair i wished misfortune on you.
In my downward spiral i grew to hate myself more, for haboring such dark emotions.
What is one, such as myself, supposed to do?
I wished to become numb on the inside, to become a fragment of the human i am,
In order to escape feeling such pain.
Will i ever be able to move on?
Or will i ever be even be able to escape?
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Feeling: contemplative
Jammin' To: I Just Want You (Band vers.) by AJ Rafael
 
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ajira_kunisaki
24 November 2009 @ 01:53 am
*pokes* is this thing on?  
whoa...been a while. been busy more or less. between my horrible sense of responsibility and horrible time management its not surprising. first quarter's been rough. i've been sleeping through my morning classes, since i always sleep late and recently i can't sleep at all. explains the sudden post i guess. UCR's been a roller coaster so far. been open here, something i couldnt really do at SOCES. its really amazing, tho' it comes with some downsides. i make people feel awkward guys in particular LOL. yeah. it was bound to happen, but sometimes im just oblivious to it and end up doing it without thinking. sorry steven and spencer. seriously sometimes i just dun think about what im doing. recently had my #2 visit UCR. zach slept over the weekend and we had a blast! introduced him to everyone and he was more than well-received. didnt sleep much. haha actually worked out too. my shoulders are still sore. makes it harder to wake up in the morning. he really enjoyed himself so much that he's already considered transferring here. dunno how that'll turn out but yeah he better haul ass if its what he wants. more or less over zach btw. him and his girlfriend both know and nothing's really changed, which is awesome. if anything our friendship has leveled up. tho' his girlfriend has been making jokes at my expense on the matter which i find inconsiderate since its like adding insult to injury. hmmm its 1:53am and i have a 7am quiz to take. i really should sleep. er at least try to.
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Feeling: hungry
Jammin' To: Ignorance by Paramore
 
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